The past few years I’ve really been working on self awareness. I’ve realized its the little things that we do to each other and to ourselves that make a difference. The other day, I had a busy morning. I had my work out class (Stroller Strides) at 9am and then my Mommy group was meeting at 10am, luckily at the same park. Of course, I thought this was great. I could do both and everything would be great. Wrong!
Instead my day turned out stressful. Starting off I didn’t have a cute workout outfit that I could war to Stroller Strides and then to the Mommy group. I know this seems silly, but sometimes girl needs to look cute and stylish. Seriously, the other moms were going to be wearing cute everyday street clothes. I didn’t want to be the mom that looks gross and out of place. So I spent the few extra moments I had in the morning trying on different workout outfits and then decidding on a tank top and shorts. Since nothing I found would translate for both occasions, I would change into a fun dress. This decision taught me a lot about myself.
First of all, why did I feel the need to pack my schedule? I’m working out 5-6 days a week, I should have taken the day off and just enjoyed the park. Secondly, why did I think a cute black summer dress would cover up the fact that I had just worked out. Instead I appeared to be the mom who profusely sweats for no reason. I had to explain that I had just worked out and threw on the dress. Lastly, clothes won’t cover up an internal dilemna.
I’ve realized losing the pregnancy weight can sometimes hinder my rational thinking and keep me from enjoying the little moments with Maggie. Don’t get me wrong. I enjoy a ton of little moments with her, I’m with her from 6:30AM-7:30PM everyday. I just don’t want to look back at this year with her and think “What did we do together?” and my answer turn out to be: “Lose weight”. So no more obsessing about losing the rest of the pregnancy weight and more obsessing about what adventure Maggie and I are going to do next.
So far this is what I have planned
San Diego Zoo
Santa Barbara Zoo (recommended because of its small size)
Long Beach Aquarium
More hiking of nature trails
Bike riding at the beach
Natural History Museum (she might be too young)
If you have any other ideas, I’m up for suggestions.