I have had a very casual relationship with yoga for a long time. I love yoga. I always considered myself to be a yoga person, but not until recently did I realize how much I love yoga and how much I want to be a yogi. There is a difference. I’ve always used yoga as part of my workout regimen, random classes at yoga studios, classes at my gym and at home DVDs. But this year I quit my gym membership and decided to put my focus on yoga. I joined a yoga studio, it is one of the best decisions I have made for myself.
There are several reasons I decided to focus my energy on yoga.
First of all, my life has hit an all time nuclear level of stress. With everything that has been going on the past couple of years with Maggie, with me and life in general, my body is a wreck. I needed something that would calm me, give me strength and help me balance myself emotionally, mentally and physically. Yoga does all of this. I have had a rollercoaster of emotions in yoga from the beginning of this year until now. The first few classes I would lay at the end of class in final Savasana (corpse pose) and tears would stream down my face. I realized that I was focused on myself during class but at the end my mind would race and I would be overwhelmed with emotions about Maggie and her diagnosis of Rett Syndrome, our life and how isolated I felt. But while I was practicing yoga, I felt none of that. I felt strength and balance and present. My goal has been to take my yoga practice off the mat, to feel strength and balance and present in my daily life. We deal with more than our share with Rett Syndrome on a daily basis, but being present in what each day will bring, while feeling strength and balanced. That is the goal.
Secondly, I have always loved yoga and wanted to teach but never really thought that was a possibility. About 2 years ago, I started getting certified to teach yoga to kids with disabilities and on the Autism spectrum. My goal was to get certified as a yoga instructor and specialize on kids with disabilities. My life was kind of derailed when things changed with Maggie and she began losing skills, I decided to put my yoga certifications on hold and focus on Maggie. Needless to say it is a little ironic that I had decided to focus on kids with special needs and yoga and my then typical daughter regressed and has special needs. But it only reinforces my belief that yoga is healing and calming and I want to bring that joy to kids with special needs.
So now it is time to find some balance in my life and finish getting certified. Of course I have realized, there are quite a few yoga poses that I need to master before I can get certified but I’m excited to start my journey to becoming a yogi. I hope you enjoy following me and laughing with me along the way.