Everybody get ready for my panic attacks!!!

I’ve been running errands the past couple of days and have been feeling weirdly anxious.  Yesterday I went to Target, bought a ton and felt good about it.  Got home, felt guilty and anxious.  Then last night I couldn’t stop thinking about how much I spent and AJ told me I was weird for obsessing about it.  Strangely though, it wasn’t really the money that was bothering me, it was something else.  I just couldn’t pin point it.  Maybe I’m feeling overwhelmed with everything I need to get done before the holidays.  I made a daily to do list for the next week, so that I wouldn’t forget anything.  Not to brag, but pretty good time management tasking, if I may say so myself.  I still felt anxious.

So today I woke up and decided to bang through my list.  I had already completed half the list by 10AM and then decided to take back a bunch of stuff to Target, because I really spent too much money.  On my way to Target I start feeling really anxious again.  After I take back half of what I bought the day before.  I feel a little better.

On my way back home, it hits me, like a freight train.  I can’t breathe.  I feel light headed and then furious.  It is happening again.  For those of you that don’t know…I am prone to panic attacks whenever there is a TEXAS CHAINSAW MASSACRE movie released.  And there it is, the huge billboard taunting me, Leatherface and that stupid creepy Texas sky.  And this movie is in 3D!

Again, I am baffled that I spent the last couple of days trying to figure out why I’m so anxious, and it is that stupid movie again!.  I guess I saw the billboard yesterday but didn’t read it, but my mind apparently took notice and decided to go ahead and make me anxious.  Of course I’m panicking Leatherface is staring at me everywhere I turn.  There is a billboard on every other block.  Why so many billboards?

For those of you that don’t believe me, I feel you should know, I have gone to therapy over this.  I wrote and performed a one woman show about my experience with this movie.  I fell in love with my husband because he didn’t care how crazy I became after seeing this movie 10 years ago.

At least I know which movie I won’t be seeing over the holidays.  Now that I think about it, what a weird time to release a horror film.  I wonder if Leatherface kills Santa this time.  I hate you TEXAS CHAINSAW MASSACRE.  #boycottleatherface #dontkillsanta

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